November 2, 1997
(Sunday)
(While I was in the Greek Orthodox Church, attending Mass, suddenly a fear gripped me and I thought that I might be indisposed to receive Our Good Lord in the Holy Communion, and that if that was the case, I might cause to bring forth upon me, with wrath, the Judgement of God.
While those thoughts were crossing back and forth in my mind, I experienced suddenly in my heart, a joy and delight that even though they came out first from my heart, these seemed to spread like a warm soothing liquid inside my very bones. While I was experiencing this consolation, my soul was being transformed to come out of its fear and gloom, into delights and light. In this joy, my soul praised the Lord and I sang to Him in silence. I revived.
Then, all of a sudden I saw our Lord open His Mouth to say something to me. I could not help notice how cheerful He was and with delight He said to me…)
come to Me ….
(…while opening at the same time His greenish-blue mantle. This gesture of His attracted me as an iron is attracted and drawn to a magnet. In this same manner my soul was drawn irresistibly to His Heart. And I found my head leaning on His Bosom. Then, ever so tenderly, the Lover of mankind said to me…)
ah, how utterly wretched you could be!
(…I was thinking, “Can someone hug fire to their breast without setting their bosom alight? Here I am, hugging the Sacred Heart, how can my own heart not catch the fire of love?”
When I had leaned my head on His Divine Heart and while I was still leaning on His Bosom, I felt His Bosom melting away and my head being absorbed into His Body. My head went through Him and through His Sacred Heart, and I found my head encompassed in His Heart, resting in this way on the Son who is nearest to the Father’s Heart…)
this Heart is your resting place; vessel-of-My-Light, this Heart is the Unique, the Prime and the Ultimate place in which your tormented souls would find an everlasting and affectionate peace and sweetness;
(…while my Beloved was saying these sweet words to me, He put His Arms around me, tightening them on me, pressing me now even more on His Bosom just like someone who wants to protect someone from being cold. He hid me completely in His Mantle. This form of holding me was just like someone who is afraid to lose the one he holds. I was considering, while I was having this experience, in the Church, whether I should write it down or not, and He said…)
write it for the benefit of souls and I will join too while you are writing, to write down My part;
(…the Lord’s Heart by now entirely absorbed my head. It was like a gateway to Heaven and during those delightful moments while my soul was enjoying this ineffable sweetness and tenderness of this heavenly repose, my head was being constantly covered by caresses…)
I have lavished your soul with My favours; I ask you now to remain in My Heart in this way; remain with Me, My beloved one;
(…then, while my soul felt inebriated as though with wine, the Lord made me taste in His Heart the sweetness of Himself, reminding me of the sweet taste of our Holy Communion1 and at the same time my head was being covered by a sweet fragrance, again, like the Holy Communion.
Then, while I was still in that repose, I noticed my surroundings being filled with smoke, the sweet smoke of burnt incense. In this serene surrounding I kept hearing my Lord and my Beloved repeat these words…)
remain here, remain in Me, then come forward and receive Me; delight Me and remain in here;
(…I sighed and wondered what makes Our Lord delight so much in a creature such as me. The zero of the zeros. He, the Perfect Being, He who suffices by Himself, how was it possible to even imagine He would look at me twice?…)
your utter wretchedness moves My Heart and My whole Being to such an extent that My Eyes fill up with tears of Mercy every time I look at you,
(…I was about to say something.)
no; do not speak; absorb My Peace and satisfy your heart in this silence, enjoy these moments of grace and absorb the sweetness your Lord is offering you; refresh your heart, My loved one, and remain in My embrace and allow yourself to be loved; do not allow your mind to wander away in the world since from the world you will receive nothing; come to Me and taste My sweet love I have for you and always had for you; 2 – say: an ineffable weakness for you, instead;
dearest gem in My Hand, the unction of My Love for you is so great that in those enflamed moments of love, My Divine Eyes cannot be but transfixed on you; think hard about this, until I arrive to fetch you;
I find no other pleasure elsewhere than in those moments when I am with you and you are like an open book to Me, to write in you My New Hymn of Love; always be available for Me and well-disposed, and in this way you will save both yourself and those who listen to you; I formed you to become My pupil;
Lord! when I think of it,
You formed me in a most amazing way;
You formed me in silence through Your Holy Spirit
and by breathing in me those divine revelations from Your Sacred Heart!
It was not like when You formed audibly Your disciples!
yes! I wanted you turn to Me wholeheartedly so that I would draw your heart towards My Love and My Fortitude; I wanted to prepare your soul to carry My Divine Message; ah Vassula, all that I say to you now, you will hear again when I will appear to you openly at the appointed time; now My Soul rejoices in looking at My garden3 and I enjoy breathing in you; every step you allow Me to take in My garden, will be done with gentleness and it will be consoling for you;
When Your Divine Gaze turned down on earth
to ravish my heart,
how was it possible that by only looking at me
You did not flee,
but instead, my unworthiness gave You so much joy,
attracting You to me?
I am known to call the least of My creation; then, I looked at you and loved you …. 4
I told you in the beginning that, were you to let Me form you, I would lead you with strings of love by My grace, imprinting on your soul My Divine Image, and with this Divine Seal which is the imprint of the Holy Trinity, you would be drawn into the fullness of Our Deity, perfecting thus your intimate union with Us in Our Divine Love;
I still intend, dearest one, to continue and whisper in your ear My secret revelations and while I will be pouring on you abundantly My gifts and My favours for My good pleasure, I will keep reminding you that by having drawn your heart so inseparably into Mine, it was so that in this courteous gesture of Mine, our union would be complete and that your spirit, through My grace, would become one with Me; 5
I had given you a prayer6 in which you consecrate body and soul to My Sacred Heart, so that your thoughts would be My thoughts, your acts My acts, giving Me voluntarily your will so that My Will be done in you;
I remind you, that by reposing your head on My Heart, in these moments of interior enjoyment, I would be the movement of your heart, the eloquence and charm of your speech, I would be the light of your eyes to give good counsel to those who need it; every movement of yours, every gesture would be coming from Me; you would be listening to all of My sighs, understanding7 their meaning so that you would be acting according to My Divine Will; through grace you will be inhaling My sweetness as you did when your head was resting on My Heart tasting Its sweet savours; 8
remember how My Father instructed you? 9 He told you that were you to allow Him to strengthen the bonds of union with Him, your soul then would be so joined to Him and your spirit so englobed in Mine that everything you would be doing would be according to My Mind; your works would be rooted in Our Goodness and your performance in Our Spirit; then My Father gave you an example of the way the members of your body work: “you just do not tell your hand what to do, but it works with your will;” this would be the manner in which We would be guiding you;
Lord, forgive my lack of confidence towards you, and to all these abundant graces that You have given to me freely in my utter unworthiness. I was hiding Your graces. I have sinned from fear of what others think.
the world will always be trying to deceive you and wound the one who is so precious to Me; and when you listen to the world that takes your mind away from contemplation, this alone wounds My Heart; 10 by grace I have drawn you into My Sacred Heart so that you be Mine alone and by grace I intend to keep you in this repose; when this cold world assails you with its temptations, and tries to disfigure your soul to resemble them, run to Me and take your refuge in My Heart; have confidence in Me and confide in Me all your problems; I am only waiting to be gracious to you, My chosen one;
the world would always try to draw you back into its entrails, a dark valley where there is only desolation; but I have chosen you amongst thousands, so why do you sadden Me with your lack of confidence? My union with you in the Light of My Divinity is so complete that you must no more lose trust but place your head on My Heart and doubt no longer on our blessed union; come and say to Me now:
“my Jesus, Divine Mercy,
I lacked confidence in You
and so I have brought Your Heart to distress;
I now ask You in my bareness and in all humility
to be forgiven so that You may,
in Your Infinite Mercy and Goodness,
restore my disfigured and wounded soul;
disfigured and wounded
by the world’s acts upon me and their sayings;” 11
I have received your prayer with delight;
in your deficiencies, I will make up, to glorify My Name thrice Holy; from now on do not let Me ever fall into any distress or sorrow that leave all My saints and angels in immense distress for being unable to relieve My pain; if ever the world persists in questioning My choice, let their sins fall on their own heads; it is with justice that I will intervene; if they treat My chosen one as they please, the one My Sacred Heart regards with particular affection, I will reprove them mightily; 12 but were you to make reparations for them, then in My Infinite Mercy I will compel them to see their sin;
I have in My Love, as I have told you in the beginning, bonded you to Me in such a way that it would be difficult for you to loosen these bonds; 13 I performed this act, after your ‘fiat’ to Me, out of pure love; My jealous love would not suffer us to ever be separated and our union broken;
I have in a moment of inebriated delight, given you a further grace: a matrimonial union thus drawing you even deeper into the repose of a sweet contemplation in My Divine Heart; in this delightful union between you and the Holy Trinity you would become Our Harp, and We would use you with delight obtaining great triumphs from you; then you in your turn would enjoy sharing with Us Our Courts; in Our Divine Grace you would become Our Litany; 14 lily of My Heart, Infinite Tenderness was shown to you so that others would learn from you and obtain the same quantity as you have obtained; lily of My Heart, Our closeness to you is your blessedness;
My Divine Will rooted in you is the greatest gift I could offer in exchange of yours; with My Divine Will in you I could make up for all your deficiencies and your insufficiencies; the words you utter would be Mine because I would be your vestment and you would have My Mind; although you are often blamed for your severity, in reality your severity is not yours but Mine; those that reproached you for this have not quite renounced their sin …. they keep forgetting that a soul once united to God becomes one spirit and one mind with Him; I have granted you for your mission all these gifts out of the Love I have for you, but also for the restoration of My House;
ah Vassula, some would ask: “why is the Lord emphasising His union, His gifts and graces so much?” if I am reminding you all of these things, it is because the world will keep trying to compel My chosen one to doubt of My gifts given to her; I had, My Vassula, warned you in the early days of your mission that your acts of love would be misunderstood and that you would be hounded like game and that you would suffer adversity, but also how My fatherly protection would always cover you, and I would come to your rescue to console you and lift you from the fangs of the evil one; I had told you that My royal Messages would be so often spat upon, rejected and ridiculed, but also how I would always stand by you to encourage you; you are still dwelling on earth but I am dwelling well within you; so do not fear; so long as you are on earth, the world, in its darkness, will keep trying to harm you and injure you;
I do not mean that you should part from your friends, but remember, do not trust yourself to people;15 some would want to force your hand to do what is contrary to your wishes, which would also be contrary to My Own wishes;
others would imply that My honourable gifts given to you, as well as My favours, are not divine and do not come from Me; for these I have something to say: “if you say they are not of divine origin then they could only be, according to your insinuation, from the father of lies, or from the subconscious; has it never occurred to you that by judging My Work as evil you are sinning against the Holy Spirit and such a sin is not forgiven? if you say that this whole divine Work comes from the subconscious, then explain to Me the mastery and learnings of these writings from someone who had no knowledge of Wisdom’s Works and had no training in even an elementary catechism;”
so far16 I have given them enough proof, and I shall give no more proof than what I have already given; then there will be those who, in spite of having asked for your advice, will ignore it, because their soul would be still striving for their personal desires and will submit to their human will and not to Mine;
I had told you that so long as your head would be resting on My Heart, you would, in these moments of repose, be reading the pulsations of My Heart, then you in your turn, you would be able to give good counsel to those who need it; but again, the world, not yet overcome from its evil thoughts, would underestimate My treasures poured out on you, under the pretext that you are not confirmed17 ….
overcome now your lack of confidence in the gifts and favours I so generously offered you and with all your heart repeat the prayer I have given you ….
(I did.)
do not worry anymore, I will continue to look after your various needs;
I have prayed, Lord, but how can I be sure I will not fail You again?
I am here to remind you; I will always come and bring you back from any hazardous paths you might be tempted to take; I will keep showing you My most delicate care I have for My chosen ones; come, today I want you to feel happy, because I can say in all truth: you have made My Word your home and you have become My pupil and indeed Mine;
My God,
You have enticed my unworthy soul to follow You
and You conferred on me valuable riches undeservedly
and in an unbounded Love You lifted up my soul.
I lifted up your soul for the benefit of My Church as well;
Vassiliki, I have given you Messages of extreme gravity; I have, during all these years breathed in you Divine revelations coming all from My Sacred Heart; My Spirit has been and is your Guide and your Light; I have truly poured out on you divine graces so that people can benefit from them too;
all My Works are good, and they are warmly welcomed by the pure in heart and the lowly, but praise is unseemly in a sinner’s mouth for My Works; I have, as I said, given you all enough proof by this Divine Treasure coming from My Sacred Heart’s treasury so that you do not doubt;
apart, Vassula, from having given you exterior signs of My Love, I have given you Knowledge and Instruction, constantly enriching you and others through these writings; are you, My dove, aware of all those Divine inspirations breathed in you of My Holy Spirit?
(I sighed, and felt so touched by the tenderness of His Voice that I find no words to describe it.)
here I am today with you, to help you overcome all your weaknesses; I could no longer bear to see you concealing in your modesty My Divine gifts that I have given you;
In Your extreme Goodness
You have deigned to give us sufficient Manna
in which our soul today rejoices;
It is immaterial, but once one’s soul absorbs it,
it hungers for more
and so, here I am, imperfect still,
and only wishing to make reparations
for the cause I gave You to bring Your Divine Heart to distress;
Let my defects and my negligences
which caused Your sorrow
be turned into fervour, trust, and a bunch of myrrh.
precious one, I am not insensitive to all the hard labours of love you undertook in My Name, nor of the hardships borne with patience for My Sake, My dove; I am not insensitive either to your requests of now, and I am glad you rely on My Grace;
It makes me happy to suffer for You.
do not weary on the way with Me;
Give me, my Lord,
opportunities to open my mouth
to glorify You without fear and without doubt.
this is why you must rely on Me and resource your spirit from My Spirit so that you can go on singing and chanting My Love Hymn to the nations; this is why I invited you to have your pilgrimage and your retreat in My Body, My loyal helper; enjoy yourself in My grace and delight in My company in this intimate light of grace given to you by My Father, and accept by tasting, as you have, the sweet savours of My Heart;
(While my Lord was saying these words, I still felt my head being encompassed in His Heart, savouring and inhaling again an essence that resembled the Holy Communion.
Suddenly it was as though Jesus turned His Holy Face away and looked at the reader. (The one who is reading these lines.) His Face was solemn, His penetrating Eyes glued on the reader. Then, while embracing me with His Arms round me, His Mantle covering me completely, giving the impression of someone protecting a victim from any further aggression, He said:)
may the heart of the reader who has read these pages, open! may his eyes and ears, open! up to the present time you have not grasped entirely My Heavenly Treasure, nor have you appreciated completely My gift18 to you; you still have not penetrated into what is beyond all price, and what I have been offering you all the days of your life:
the tremendous grace of knowing Me in an intimate union and tasting interiorly, in the nuptial chamber of My Heart, My sweetness and My Divine kisses; happy those who listen to Me and obtain this grace; woe to those who in their wretched condition and in their stained mind resist this grace; they shall weep in their misery one day;
it is good to do good works for Me and follow some devotions as well as acts of love, thanksgivings and acts of reparation, but I would be greatly disappointed that you would die before having known Me; 19 I would be greatly distressed were you to die now before having understood Me; 20 many of you are busy with your daily chores, which please Me if they are done with love and they are according to My Mind, but all of this would be incomplete if you do not open to grace and acknowledge Me in My intimacy; so come and accept My familiar companionship and I, in My good pleasure, I will take you into the mysteries and the hidden secrets of Our Heart; 21 you and We, will become inseparably united in Our Love for ever end ever;
(Jesus then turned to me and with a grave look in His Eyes said:)
now I have, like in former times, spoken to you from My Heart, to remind you, My child, of My Infinite Love, and especially to take away that seed that was thrust in you by the world; I could not bear any longer to see My adopted one, My joyful messenger, being shred to pieces by the misgivings the world tried to put into her mind: 22 your fear of My having thrust an ice-cube in your heart instead of My Divine grace, Vassula, belittle Me and has no foundations in the Truth …. adversities have not made you lose the Peace I have given you in your heart, and that is good; but for My Sake, My dove, do not ever again doubt of My graces and unbounded Love I have for you always;
do not lose your trust in Me; why, can you not see how divinely enamoured to folly, I am of you? so I beg of you to trust Me; so long as you are still on earth, remain in Me to perfect your union with Me and receive Me as often as you can in Holy Communion, magnifying your love on Me, and abandoning yourself to Me; remain in this Resting Place23 for ever, allowing Me to keep you in this Furnace of Love, to make you taste the sweetness of My Love; 24
1 Co. 6:17
