May 31, 1987
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Sunday Vassula, come and receive Me, 1 I will be there, delight Me, come and see Me! say you are Mine, let Me hear it! (I'm Yours Jesus, and I love You.) for years, Vassula, I was waiting for these words! love Me now that you are Mine. teach me to love You as You wish. trust Me, I will later on (It still amazes me how my hand moves ...) do You know that Jesus? I do, but am I not Omnipotent? Vassula be peaceful, be calm, be serene, like Me (I was interrupted while writing twice by my son, coming in, slamming the door, etc. I felt upset! too much noise.) love Me, answer Me! I love You, I love You, Lord! never replace Me; have Me first, face Me first and remain facing Me for ever; be like a mirror, a reflexion of Myself, never seek others but Me, never seek your old habits of your earlier life; I am Holy and Lord, I and you are one now and I mean to keep you just for Myself and for eternity; humble yourself, learn from Me, desire Me only; breathe for Me; do not turn left or right now, keep going straight, beloved, allow Me to use you, hold on to Me, enrapture Me with your simplicity in words, simplicity infatuates Me, say to Me your words, let Me hear them again, tell Me "I love you Jesus, you are my joy, my breathe, my rest, my sight, my smile,
How in silence Lord? in silence looking at Me, I want you to stay still, without having interferences of any sort, seek Me in silence; Without interferences at all. none at all Jesus, how could I possibly find this stillness in a family, it is almost impossible!
do you know how I felt that time you felt so unloved? Where? in My Church no Lord. I felt crucified all over again, bruised, scourged, spat upon, nailed again no, you did not know either that I never refuse anybody who comes to Me, 1 call to Holy Communion 2 After I had been told that Jesus does refuse sometimes people and He can shut the door to them; in an argument I had with one priest in the seminary, giving me to read a passage from the Bible about the Canaan woman whom He refused. (But in the end He did not refuse her; He had only challenged her to show her faith) but that, I did not know, and the one who showed me this passage did not let me read till the end. I had gone to Church taking Holy Communion, so I felt according to our agreement that I had taken something not permitted, breaking all laws of the Catholic Church; and that I took something without permission, thus being very evil. The following Sunday I went to Church, I stood near the door, so that I'm half out (since I felt unwanted) and since I believed I was evil and that God was very angry with me, I did not go forward with the others for Communion, fearing I would make things worse if I did. - Jesus, I didn't know that all this would hurt You, I mean my feeling of being unloved! |
